robert_dota

sabi ng evaluation paper ko e "sorry d ka qualified mag 3rd year kasi 2.14 average mo"

wala ba kong nagawa para sa college namin? wala kong bad records, or IR. wala kong bagsak na subject. mali ung computation ng GPa na supposedly, 2.09 ung akin (na safe point). tapos ung mga mandaraya tsaka mga nilakad na istudyante mag 3rd year dun? WTF? fuck u! cno ka mang nagevaluate sana mahiya ka sa balat mo. D ako papayag na gnito lng. I may not fully deserve the name of being called 3rd year pero I deserve a second chance to prove myself. God. please dont leave me now. I need you more than ever. If u do have a reason then so be it, but not this way.. not this way..

robert_dota

wla na cgurong mas sasakit pa sa pagsusulat sa sarili mong blog kung anong nangyari sa yo na hindi mo kayang tanggapin.

 kinausap ko na si dean luna kasama mama ko kanina. d cya nagreconsider. .08 na lng at d sana nagkaloko loko buhay ko. kasalanan ko naman e. pero sana lng binigyan pa nya ko ng isang chance. tao lng cya at ganon din ako. kelangan ko na lng intindihin un. trabaho nya un e at pagkukulang ko un. ganon talaga. tapos itong isang bukod tanging tao pa na may feelings ako e nagalit pa ata sa kin. alam ko namang mali e. kaya lng tao lng ako! d ko naman ginusto na mainlove na lng sa kanya noh.

nothing's going right. Lord show me the light. I need u now.

Its been quite some time now. I've been depressed too long already.

And I'm happy I'm back to normal again.

I've found a new home at St. Joseph's college now. I will pursue my nursing career here not because I wanted to finish it but mainly because I don't want to disappoint everyone around me. I know it does not sound good nor look good in paper but at least, there's a direction of where I am going now.

As for my "lovelife", I feel creeped out. I am in love with the right person at the wrong time and wrong way. But hey, I'm only human. I did not expect this to happen but then again, it happened and what's worse is that I should have kept quiet about it but I spilled the beans too soon. Great Rob. Just Great.

So what's next now? Nothing's certain. I'll just have to stick to my elements and leave the rest to time.

Currently listening to: Lifehouse - Everything
Currently feeling: Sad

robert_dota

That song is funny but these lines might as well describe the feeling I have right now

 "I don't have nerves of steel only a heart that feels, I may have cried a million tears but I wont drown..."

I'm over the whole thing now. EVERYTHING. This is the new life that I was looking for; my old study habits, the old passion for doing every little thing I could for others and this feeling that I have found what I've been looking for all along. I've been a very busy busy man lately because I was appointed president of our class, the controversial St. Francis section from trinity. I am the leader of every groupings we can ever have at school. I am also assigned by our CI to take charge of the other students assigned at the hospital. My first day at the Antipolo Medical Center was a toxic one partly because it was my initial outing and mainly because of the Job I have to do every now and then (which is to take rounds at the 2 floors of my area, take vital signs every hour and report any discharges or duty changes in the area anytime to our CI.) but though it's tiring, I'm enjoying every bit of it. Thanks to my newfound inspiration. Who is it? Hahaha... You'll never know

Currently listening to: Everything - LIfehouse
Currently feeling: Relieved!

robert_dota

I'm 18 na?

Really? Hahaha

 First and foremost thanks a lot po sa mga bumati sa kin. I really appreciate it.. Hehe.. 77 thru text (binilang e noh?) 2 via testimonials (cute hehe), 7 naman sa YM at madami pang iba dito sa amin. Ang galing pero kahit na pangit pakinggan, ganon kadami na pala ang mga taong in a way e natouch ko in a way (baka anong touch isipin nyo ha?). Well gusto ko lng na sana e sa pagtanda ko pa ng isang taon e mas madami pa kong matinong magawa. Makatulong sana sa pagbabagong buhay ko tong pagbubuhat, pagtigil sa pagkain ng rice, pagtigil sa pagdodota at pagcoconcentrate ko sa pag aaral. Isa na lng talaga kulang.. GIRLFRIEND. Hahaha.. Dadating din yan pero sana wish ko lng ngaun na. Lagi kasing andyan na ung gusto mo pero wala kang magawa kasi alam mo wala ding mangyayari. Parang ngaun. Haha. Tama na nga to! Duty ko pa bukas at madami pang gagawin.

Currently listening to: Far Away - Nickelback
Currently reading: IVF Regulation Chart
Currently watching: PBA: Ginebra vs Purefoods
Currently feeling: Happy!