Just got my brand new Ericsson W550i. Finally bagong fone uli haha.

 

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It's been a while and a good friend's post pushed me into posting some sense back into my blog again.

Summer is over and tomorrow is my capping day, the formal welcome to the nursing community in any school. That means that I will be under the nursing proper and to cut the slack short, I can't fool around anymore. No more DOTA, less magic cards exposure, less sleep, goodnight ps2 and hello psp. Playing is not an option now but instead it's just going to be a luxury.

But really, how am I faring? After that week long torment at the lung center of the Philippines where I was down with dengue stage 3, I have changed. Eversince, I was a different person who valued life, every second and every minute of it, just as how it should be treated. Yes, "we can't turn back time" but we sure can make up for lost time though it may not be that good as it should have been. I missed out on doing some important school things because I wanted to make the most out of every opportunity at hand but I have no regrets. After all, life is short and I have always told other to do what they please so i believe it applies to me after all. Quite funny isn't it? So much with the gibberish anyway.

So how's my love life? It's been a blast! A disaster. I was expecting too much out of someone I didn't know very well and there it goes... Boom! Another used to be. I thought she was perfect and all in that glamour and stuff but it turned out that the proverbial saying "substance over matter" would show its ugly face over again. She succumbed to her own ghosts and there's nothing I could do about it. I just wish her (and him?) the best. I just hope she knows what she's getting into and who her real friends really are. One thing for sure though; I will always be here for her if she needs me.

And with that in mind, I have always resorted to the idea of being alone. Where is "Ms. Right"? She's somewhere out there, waiting for me to find her but the sad thing is, I ain't looking for her. What do I mean with this? I know she has been there all along. Yes, the very same girl I fell for just before I moved in to my new home. Hard to chew on? Haha. I made it that way so that I'll only be making sense to myself. I'm not a kid anymore and I know what's wrong in my life but yet, I am adding to my problems instead of reducing it. A girlfriend may not be necessary for others but as funny as it sounds, it is to me. I am a very different person with one and I know that I can be without one but heck, I just can't be one. And it pains me to see this happen over and over and over again as years pass by. I'm not going to ask the same question again if I'm bound to be alone or what but I will stick to my new gameplan now. What is my new plan? Only God knows.

"At aalis, magbabalik, at uulitin sabihin na mahalin, ka't sambitin, kahit muling masaktan..."

Oo, kahit muling masaktan. At oo, kahit gano katagal, maghihintay na ko.

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last tourney ko ngaun ng magic sa robinson's galleria! wish me luck!

Currently listening to: Nobela - Join the Club
Currently feeling: Masaya

Love isn't when you can't sleep... it's when you want to keep your eyes
 open...

 

Currently listening to: We Belong - Toni Gonzaga
Currently feeling: happy

Haaaaaaaaaaaay! Sa thursday duty ko na.. omg.. itong sangkaterbang return demo pa nga lng e nalulula na ako e.. so damn tiring! oh well.. sadyang ganyan ang life pero wala akong magagwa dahil ito na ung chosen path ko e.. d man chosen e natuto na kong mahalin ung course at ung mga tao sa paligid ko.. since ganito na din lng ang mga nangyayari e pagpatuloy na natin. Sayang naman.

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This sunday lng e naglaro ako sa robinsons galleria ng regionals qualifiers ng magic kung saan kasapi ang iba't ibang type ng players at iba ibang deck para makapasok sa top 4 ng qualifiers at makuha ang libreng gate pass papuntang nationals. Too bad for me. Wala akong playtest at ung deck na ginamit ko e kagabi ko lng nakita. 4-3-1 ang standing ko (win-loss-draw) at ung 2 wins ko e galing sa dalawa sa top 50 players ng bansa.. amazing di ba? haha. dapat andun na din ako kung hindi ako tumigil dahil nasa top 100 na ako nung nagstop ako at naubos ang puntos ko kakalaro ng mga fnm gamit e mga fun deck lng. Anyways madali lng naman ung laro e basta aral muna. Perfect ko naman ung 3 return demos namin (suctioning, NGT feeding tsaka cord care) at ako ung pinakamabilis nakagawa ng lahat. sana naman e kayanin ko to! damn duties.. d ako makakapag FNM... oh well..

Good luck na lng sa atin!

Currently listening to: Greenday - Jesus of Suburbia
Currently feeling: tired

DAY 1 of DUTY @ east avenue: DONE!

 Grabe.. sobrang napagod ako sa buong maghapon lumipas. We arrived at East Avenue Medical Center at around 1:00 pm. I was with alicia, darrianne, aiza and mark. There, we were met by Arthur, Jenelyn and EJ. We went upstairs (@the 5th floor) to meet the Neurology Group C.I. Miss Melody Delima. Afterwards, my group went down to the basement where the medical/surgical ward is located to meet our C.I., Miss Tess Caritativo. We were met there by 63 patients. I was appointed leader of our group so I was tasked to assign my groupmates to their respective patient assignments. We are lucky that it is our first day so all we have to do is to take up our patient's vital signs but then again, THERE ARE 63 OF THEM. So the nurse patient ratio is 1:6.. 1 Student per 6 patients. And so the whole 7 hours passed and all we did was do rounds and take up vital signs, do this and do that. I've learned how to regulate the IV flow and how to change the Dextrose containers. I've also witnessed the actual IV insertion (exclude the one that was done on me when I was diagnosed with dengue!) and heard different drastic tales from the patients. Life sure is hell when you don't have enough funds to pay your dues.. So learn to appreciate life while you still could. In the next days to come, don't expect me to keep posting here on my blog.. I might need every ounce of time for resting.. Next week, we are due for the submission of our individual nursing care plans and our group defense.. God bless us!

Currently listening to: Paramita - Hiling
Currently feeling: Super Tired

DAY 2 @ EAST AVENUE MEDICAL CENTER: DONE!

Haha.. burn my ankles more! I can't feel it anyway.. So much for walking around for 7 hours doing this and doing that, inserting this and inserting that, giving this and giving that. I'll be doing this for a few days more and I admit it! It's tiring! But then again, it's part of my new job description now and I have to take into account that I have to do all these stuff without any arguments of whatsoever. But when I emphatically placed myself into the shoes of my medical/surgical patients, I feel so lucky that we are quite financially able. If it was one of them who was in my condition a good 2 months back, they would have been dead. I have consumed 12 plasma bags grossing about 10,000 php alone, spent 8 days at the suite room worth 2K a day and consumed different meds and food worth 50K more. My hospital bill was around 70K and to think of how hard money is earned nowadays, I must say that my gatepass to a few years more in my life did not come in a silver platter. AND THE SAME DOES NOT APPLY FOR THEM. They have to be content with the meds they are given, the hot underground hall that they are placed and the treatment they are receiving from the unrelenting nurses left to care for them. Life sure is hell when you don't have the money to support yours needs. Be thankful that you are able to use the internet to read this. Others are happy with the food they can afford with the money you are using to pay your net fee.

Look around and think. Just value what you are seeing now.

Currently listening to: Jeepney - Spongecola
Currently feeling: Tired