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"Is this the beginning of our last dance? Once around the floor can we do it again? I feel the thrill from words we say... I LOVE YOU"

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I give up.

She's too hard to please, too hard to get and this mountain only got higher that I can't see the peak anymore. I've soared too high only to crash and burn. You're too much. Sometimes I think ur not enough. You're so unpredictable and yet too easy to read. I'm challenged but I'm only hurting myself as it goes longer. I give up.

The night belongs to us

We're caught in a world of our own

We cling to the hope it will change for us

Is it in vain? Is it too late?

Why did it have to be you than I?

I heard the news today...

Currently listening to: Endless, A Silent Whisper - Urbandub
Currently feeling: Confused

robert_dota

Ever fell for someone who you feel is the right one for you only to find out she lands with someone else u least expect her to be with? Then afterwards, they part ways and u find yourself falling for her again each and everytime you see her?

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HA! it's been a long ride now since classes started last month. I'm having a very good run as a junior now in college taking up the ever demanding nursing course. I've met new friends, faced different kind of people and amassed different things in a span of one and a half month. It is pretty obvious that I am busy isn't it? It's been almost 3 weeks since I last posted here. Am I busy? Maybe not. I just can't find the right words to use in making my posts. Everyday is a new day and it's quite funny how things end up at the end of the day. What the heck am I talking about? Alright. I'll share some na nga..

Since entering St.Joseph's College (after leaving trinity), I've been a different person. DIFFERENT. I've been smarter, stopped bragging about what I have and what I do, picks the right time for the right things and studies, even in advance, every now and then. Somehow, the school's holy atmosphere has changed my lifestyle and I am glad it did. My new school also has something great for guy newcomers like me; A TON OF HOT CHICKS! Haha! I am flabbergasted by the insurmountable amounts of gorgeous looking ladies in our school. But hey, if you know me, you should very well know that I don't settle for looks. And just like now, this has been proven time and time and time again...

I'm so in love with my new classmate (how do I define new? haha! you'll never know...) and I'm going bananas everytime I see her. I don't know what's with her that catches my fancy but I can very much say she's so unique (and yes, I tell her about this every now and then). I just feel bad that I think we are living in different worlds. She has her own ways and so do I. The only thing we have in common is our course and that sucks. She always has this unorthodox style of showing a guy what he means to her and I must say  I'll never know how she does it. Well so much for my lovelife now! Even I myself can't come to terms with what I should do about what I feel. But one thing's for sure now: I'm willing to lose it all for her even if I fail.

So help me God.

take a bunch of care everyone!

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dad's going back to africa today after spending two weeks here. He'll be back in four months to have a 2 weeks stay again. Coldsnap, the new magic expansion is out and I've got lots of cards in my wants list. I still have to pay about 2K of mortgages. Haha!

Currently listening to: The Used - Blue and Yellow
Currently feeling: Happy

robert_dota

DAY 2 @ EAST AVENUE MEDICAL CENTER: DONE!

Haha.. burn my ankles more! I can't feel it anyway.. So much for walking around for 7 hours doing this and doing that, inserting this and inserting that, giving this and giving that. I'll be doing this for a few days more and I admit it! It's tiring! But then again, it's part of my new job description now and I have to take into account that I have to do all these stuff without any arguments of whatsoever. But when I emphatically placed myself into the shoes of my medical/surgical patients, I feel so lucky that we are quite financially able. If it was one of them who was in my condition a good 2 months back, they would have been dead. I have consumed 12 plasma bags grossing about 10,000 php alone, spent 8 days at the suite room worth 2K a day and consumed different meds and food worth 50K more. My hospital bill was around 70K and to think of how hard money is earned nowadays, I must say that my gatepass to a few years more in my life did not come in a silver platter. AND THE SAME DOES NOT APPLY FOR THEM. They have to be content with the meds they are given, the hot underground hall that they are placed and the treatment they are receiving from the unrelenting nurses left to care for them. Life sure is hell when you don't have the money to support yours needs. Be thankful that you are able to use the internet to read this. Others are happy with the food they can afford with the money you are using to pay your net fee.

Look around and think. Just value what you are seeing now.

Currently listening to: Jeepney - Spongecola
Currently feeling: Tired

robert_dota

DAY 1 of DUTY @ east avenue: DONE!

 Grabe.. sobrang napagod ako sa buong maghapon lumipas. We arrived at East Avenue Medical Center at around 1:00 pm. I was with alicia, darrianne, aiza and mark. There, we were met by Arthur, Jenelyn and EJ. We went upstairs (@the 5th floor) to meet the Neurology Group C.I. Miss Melody Delima. Afterwards, my group went down to the basement where the medical/surgical ward is located to meet our C.I., Miss Tess Caritativo. We were met there by 63 patients. I was appointed leader of our group so I was tasked to assign my groupmates to their respective patient assignments. We are lucky that it is our first day so all we have to do is to take up our patient's vital signs but then again, THERE ARE 63 OF THEM. So the nurse patient ratio is 1:6.. 1 Student per 6 patients. And so the whole 7 hours passed and all we did was do rounds and take up vital signs, do this and do that. I've learned how to regulate the IV flow and how to change the Dextrose containers. I've also witnessed the actual IV insertion (exclude the one that was done on me when I was diagnosed with dengue!) and heard different drastic tales from the patients. Life sure is hell when you don't have enough funds to pay your dues.. So learn to appreciate life while you still could. In the next days to come, don't expect me to keep posting here on my blog.. I might need every ounce of time for resting.. Next week, we are due for the submission of our individual nursing care plans and our group defense.. God bless us!

Currently listening to: Paramita - Hiling
Currently feeling: Super Tired

robert_dota

Haaaaaaaaaaaay! Sa thursday duty ko na.. omg.. itong sangkaterbang return demo pa nga lng e nalulula na ako e.. so damn tiring! oh well.. sadyang ganyan ang life pero wala akong magagwa dahil ito na ung chosen path ko e.. d man chosen e natuto na kong mahalin ung course at ung mga tao sa paligid ko.. since ganito na din lng ang mga nangyayari e pagpatuloy na natin. Sayang naman.

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This sunday lng e naglaro ako sa robinsons galleria ng regionals qualifiers ng magic kung saan kasapi ang iba't ibang type ng players at iba ibang deck para makapasok sa top 4 ng qualifiers at makuha ang libreng gate pass papuntang nationals. Too bad for me. Wala akong playtest at ung deck na ginamit ko e kagabi ko lng nakita. 4-3-1 ang standing ko (win-loss-draw) at ung 2 wins ko e galing sa dalawa sa top 50 players ng bansa.. amazing di ba? haha. dapat andun na din ako kung hindi ako tumigil dahil nasa top 100 na ako nung nagstop ako at naubos ang puntos ko kakalaro ng mga fnm gamit e mga fun deck lng. Anyways madali lng naman ung laro e basta aral muna. Perfect ko naman ung 3 return demos namin (suctioning, NGT feeding tsaka cord care) at ako ung pinakamabilis nakagawa ng lahat. sana naman e kayanin ko to! damn duties.. d ako makakapag FNM... oh well..

Good luck na lng sa atin!

Currently listening to: Greenday - Jesus of Suburbia
Currently feeling: tired